Choices

Life is full of choices. When you wake up, you make a choice of do you want to make some milk and milo today or just go to work empty stomached because it is way too early to eat anything and spend some awkward minutes in a meeting trying to mask the sound of your tummy growling because you chose not to have the light breakfast. You then make a choice of wearing the same old ugly worn out shoes for work or the spanking new pair of shoes you just bought 2 days ago and have been dying to wear knowing sure enough it is gonna eat into your skin the first time and leave you with a bad cut because you didn't put a padding in it. For sake of beauty, girls go for the latter. But the scar on the back of your ankle doesn't go away, mind you. Then you wonder if you want to have a heavy lunch and skip dinner because you start to feel fat and bloated and that makes you feel guilty for even eating at all or you skip the lunch and have a guilt-free dinner by telling yourself you only had 2 meals or worst, 1 meal that day so you have every friggin right to enjoy your dinner. I know it doesn't work that way as we tend to over-indulge when we are super hungry but let's just be naive for a second. What if one day you wake up and you realise you don't have a choice but to go to work. Do we have a choice of staying at home and having our so called ME time? And the many many days after where you wake up every morning feeling like a piece of steaming hot pile of shit wishing you have a choice. You do, everyone and everything comes with a choice as well as a consequence. Somedays we have to be logical and realistic and some days you just want to say I-DON'T-GIVE-A-SHIT. Everyone needs a break to recharge and refresh. What if you realise it is no longer working for you and no matter how hard you try, you can't charge and you can't shake the shitty feeling every morning. You are left again with choices and consequences, most often than not in these circumstances....you make the stupidest choices but what if at the end of the day, all you want is to be able to be happy. To not have to keep your frustrations and bring it home. What if it is a choice of being happy or being miserable. Life is too short and we waste it away a lot. Sometimes we need to make a choice for change. A change is good. That is how we recharge. Doing something different. I made a choice for that more than a year ago, I became happy but change happens everyday and sometimes it ends and you are left with new choices to make. Some days you just don't want to wake up but unfortunately that is not a choice you can make.