It's nearing the end of January 2008. Funny thing is I started this year writing out a draft for my blog on the highlights/'lowlights' of 2007 and what I'm looking forward to in 2008. Whadya know? I wrote the draft 3 times over, 3 versions and threw them away (well virtually). I couldn't write one that I liked. I would start off nicely and it will slowly spiral downwards into a bitter piece of pathetic post.
It had been quite a busy start to the year. There had been many tasks piling up but somehow, miraculously I've managed to take them all in my stride. I stressed over deadlines but miraculously again, things seemed to work out at the end of the day. Well, there's more to come so I better not get too happy. Brings to mind this advice that an ex-boss gave me years ago when I was doing my training. He said 'There is no such thing as no solution. Everything has a solution, you just need to find it' Of course that was said to someone else in a different context but I remember it till now. It always makes me feel a little better when I run it through my head. Aside from these routineness of everyday work, that's just how it is... I've come to be quite bored and resentful of it. I've always known programming and software support is never my thing. It's strange though how I can do it for 4 years. I guess that's a perfect example of procrastination. This crossroad in my life has got me thinking that it's almost time I ..hmmm...maybe follow in my dad's footsteps. Who knows? I might just do that... :)
On a personal front, to be honest, things have been up and down like rapid waves and so melodramatic sometimes. Sometimes we have to play peacemaker, sometimes we have to put a fake smile on our face so not to hurt others that hurt us and we can't show the hurt because we don't want to hurt them (complicated...yes), sometimes we need to be ignorant and thank God for the creation of mp3 players and headphones (ignorance is bliss, but frankly it's easier said than done). 2007 had been a year of petty chaos and this past 1 month or so hadn't been any better. Sometimes I feel ashamed at myself for being over-sensitive and sometimes I feel ashamed of the people around me that make a big fuss out of nothing. These past month I feel pressured for no obvious reason. Now I go to sleep fearing the future and fearing what people expect of me which I can't fulfill. All this pressure and worrying I'm putting on myself really takes a toll and at times I really don't know what to do but just think of nice shoes and sleep it off. Sounds melodramatic as well.
Anyhoo, Chinese New Year is coming. It's a time of eating, watching tv, eating...oh well, that's like what I do every day. *blush*
It had been quite a busy start to the year. There had been many tasks piling up but somehow, miraculously I've managed to take them all in my stride. I stressed over deadlines but miraculously again, things seemed to work out at the end of the day. Well, there's more to come so I better not get too happy. Brings to mind this advice that an ex-boss gave me years ago when I was doing my training. He said 'There is no such thing as no solution. Everything has a solution, you just need to find it' Of course that was said to someone else in a different context but I remember it till now. It always makes me feel a little better when I run it through my head. Aside from these routineness of everyday work, that's just how it is... I've come to be quite bored and resentful of it. I've always known programming and software support is never my thing. It's strange though how I can do it for 4 years. I guess that's a perfect example of procrastination. This crossroad in my life has got me thinking that it's almost time I ..hmmm...maybe follow in my dad's footsteps. Who knows? I might just do that... :)
On a personal front, to be honest, things have been up and down like rapid waves and so melodramatic sometimes. Sometimes we have to play peacemaker, sometimes we have to put a fake smile on our face so not to hurt others that hurt us and we can't show the hurt because we don't want to hurt them (complicated...yes), sometimes we need to be ignorant and thank God for the creation of mp3 players and headphones (ignorance is bliss, but frankly it's easier said than done). 2007 had been a year of petty chaos and this past 1 month or so hadn't been any better. Sometimes I feel ashamed at myself for being over-sensitive and sometimes I feel ashamed of the people around me that make a big fuss out of nothing. These past month I feel pressured for no obvious reason. Now I go to sleep fearing the future and fearing what people expect of me which I can't fulfill. All this pressure and worrying I'm putting on myself really takes a toll and at times I really don't know what to do but just think of nice shoes and sleep it off. Sounds melodramatic as well.
Anyhoo, Chinese New Year is coming. It's a time of eating, watching tv, eating...oh well, that's like what I do every day. *blush*
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